It's times like these...

that forces me to reevaluate my life.
my priorities.

Blaaahh.
Being a christian is not easy. It's a CONSTANT battle.
I win. I lose.
there are times when im such an A+ christian, then it fades.
I always find myself straying. And I let myself stray to be honest. Because in the back of my mind, I know whenever I decide to go back to God, he will always be willing to take me.

And that's taking Him for granted, I know. I know.

It's SO hard to maintain a good relationship with God. There's a lot of distractions and what not. I get easily distracted. It's easier to be wrong than right most of the time.

I think I've been straying for about 4-5 months now. I found some new distractions.
But now they don't give me the same excitement and fulfillment as they used to.
Now I'm just, empty.


"And I find myself here on my knees again caught up in grace like an avalanche. Nothing can compare to this love burning in my heart."



And that's when I discovered this song. In the most unexpected place. I usually avoid playing christian song posts on my tumblr. But when I saw this song I played it out of curiosity.
It did something in me. One of those things that the human mind cannot explain or understand, but it does something to the soul. Brings out things that are emotional.. but is some way deeper than just plain emotions.

This is when I know it's time to go back. Time to fill myself up again. Time to reevaluate.
To go back to the basics. Back to God. Back to love.